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OBSESSED with jamie tartt x kent!reader, idk why this pairing never crossed my mind before i need more of them asap... what are some of the ways he's asked her out before the first kiss? what temptations did she have to resist?????
doing this as more of a blurb / headcanon bc i think it just fits easier and i just wrote 2k words on the size of baby kent ii and i need a decompress
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after he first met you he'd already been gone for you (first meeting is being written soon)
the second time he saw you, waiting for roy in the parking lot outside the track, he'd been casual about it, thinking it would be a slam dunk - he was sure you'd felt the spark between you as well, and when you said no, he'd shrugged it out, thinking you were just playing hard to get
the next time had him shaken a little bit, he'd run into you at the park (totally at random and definitely not seen on Keeley's close friends insta story) and was striking up casual conversation, and it just flowed so well, you guys talked like old friends, and he thought maybe that's what he was missing last time. your shy smile when he complimented you was his bat signal, and he went in, asking you to dinner - but again, you turned him down, offering no reason and leaving without another word
then he was starting to wonder if maybe you were already taken, or just didn't like him. since you'd said no, he couldn't keep asking, right??? he decided to take the loss then, because he had to take no for an answer
but then he saw you a week later in roy's office, waiting for your brother, and you lit up when you saw jamie through the glass, but losing the smile as soon as roy walked in
and jamie understood then, it was just about roy, roy probably warned you off jamie, and that wasn't fair. jamie worked hard to be a good guy lately, he's been basically a nun spending all his time training, trying out his hand in dating before sleeping with someone
so he was back in it, you werent playing hard to get, you were just nervous about pissing roy off, and there was a spark between you guys
so he set a few rules for himself - ask once when he saw you, and take no for the answer until next time, don't seek you out like he did at the park, let it come naturally, show you that he can be a consistent thing in your life and it can be good, and finally always, always try to make you feel like he liked being you with or without you accepting a date, because that was the truth
so most interactions were the same, he would say hello, ask you how you were, what was new, ask you to dinner, then when you said no, he would smile and say 'maybe next time,' and then ask you random things about yourself. he made a mental note of everything (then put it in a note in his phone) he knew your favourite movie, coffee order, favourite take out place, favourite colour
it was how he knew you liked him too, because you offered up all this information freely, you were never tense or annoyed with him, just talked to him happily until roy stumbled across you guys and interrupted the fun
and over a few months of this, it evolved - jamie stopped finding interest in anyone else, not a blond in a bar or a model handing him their number at a match. and you stopped going on dates too, and you started looking forward to your visits with jamie. started going to the pitch just in hopes you'd see, even if you worried maybe this was all a ploy to piss roy off. and you'd started asking things back, you learned about his mum, what his favourite things are, you knew his hairdressers name and the obscene amount jamie spends on buying movies on apple tv instead of paying for any streaming services
towards the end, like two or three weeks before the first kiss, jamie started putting his knowledge of you in action
the first time he broke one of his rules was when he went to seek you out on your birthday, bringing you your favourite flowers, your coffee order and a bagful of different pastries because he hadn't asked you that yet. he offered to take you on a birthday date, you said no, and then the two of you sat and had a coffee together on the porch.
the second time he'd broken one of his rules was when he'd asked you out following the regular routine, but then during his game he saw you in the stands with keeley, wearing his jersey on your back, and you'd shown it to him, saw him looking, turned around and pointed both thumbs at his name on your back, and he malfunctioned, played better than he ever had, and asked you out again after the game, when he saw you in the hallway in his shirt, and he hugged you all sweaty and gross. but this time you said no differently, like you were sad about saying no. and his stomach dropped, because he liked you so much, he was a step away for falling for you entirely, but roy was in the way (a/n: might make this one a full chapter)
and he broke rule number 3, he didn't make you feel like he was happy just to be near you this time, he gave you a sad smile, and nodded, and went into the locker room. and it broke your heart because you were just as gone for him as he was for you, but roy would have been livid
and the next time was in roys office again, when you nearly started crying, and then jamie couldnt hold himself back, broke rule number 1 & 2 again, and finally broke thru the barrier
#jamie tartt#ted lasso#jamie tartt fic#jamie tartt x kent!reader#jamie tartt x reader#jamie tartt x y/n#jamie tartt x you#jamie tartt fluff#jamie tartt angst#angst if u squint idk#jamie tartt headcanons#jamie tartt imagine
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haven’t shot your heart yet
pairing: matt sturniolo x oc!youtuber
summary: in a world curated for the screen, matt and kylie stumble into something real. their first encounter was something passed off as chemistry for the cameras. but there’s this new feeling going on, quieter, deeper—an off-script connection in an online world that rarely pauses for breath. this is how everything started.
notes: first one, don't really now how writing or editing here works, but i swear i'm trying my best. this turn out to be bigger than what i expected. slow burn, getting to know each other type of thing. maybe i'll end up doing a series for this plot, don't know. oh, idk how big the pictures turn out to be. i'm nervous af.
wc: 2.7k maybe?

It wasn’t supposed to be a date. Not officially, at least.
Kylie Rose had 3.5 million subscribers on her channel now, more than when they first met.
She was finally back in Boston after a weekend at her hometown. She had this quick modeling job with AllSaints that required her attention, a shoot drenched in dark layers and sharp eyeliner — her kind of thing.
He saw her Instagram Story, a blurry shot of the Boston skyline at dusk with the caption: “back in the city. hi again”. That was enough. He paused on it longer than he should have.
Matt didn’t rush. He didn’t double-tap. He just thought — about how funny she was when they met each other on Cut The Camera, how sharp and honest she’d been in her answers, and how she never once tried to impress anyone. She just was. So he DMed her.
“saw you’re in Boston. we can hang out if you have time, just us.”
That was something he almost regretted texting. No “me and my brothers”. Just us. No group thing. He second-guessed because maybe she wouldn’t be down to. But he just shook it off and tried not to think too much about it, occupying his mind with something else.
See, tried is the key word. Because something shifted when they met.
When Kylie walked into the studio for the episode, Matt felt it in his chest first, a weird mix of calm and chaos. She had this quiet confidence. Like she knew herself and didn’t need anyone else to verify that.
During filming, she’d answered a question about vulnerability, saying: “I’m not afraid to be real. If you’ve seen what I’ve been through, you’d know that pretending is way more exhausting.”
Matt looked at her then — really looked. Not the public figure, not the curated YouTuber. Just her.
It stuck with him. He noticed the way she would play with a specific ring on her finger, turning it around every now and then. Combined with the look on her face, it seemed like she was getting ready to fight someone. But if you blinked, maybe it was just a grounding technique. He noticed how she didn’t put her loose strands of hair behind her ear in a discreet way, but instead, switched her posture while placing the entirety of her hand on top of her head, fingers going in between her roots, pushing her hair out of the way and sliding it down. Like an effortless bold statement.
After the podcast ended, he and his brothers went home talking about how easy she was to talk to, even when the subjects were not. He took a very quick minute to visualize her in front of his eyes when the traffic stopped because of a red light.
It wasn’t about attraction alone — although, yeah, she was gorgeous. He didn’t really believe in love at first sight.
It was interest. Curiosity. That pull toward someone who feels like a mirror you didn’t know existed.
So when he saw she was in Boston, 7 months later, he didn’t want to lose the chance. He’d been so busy in LA, going back home was a relief. And she was there as well. He wanted to meet her off-camera. Without edits. Without Nick and Chris. Just them. He felt like there was more to know.
Kylie accepted Matt’s invitation for one simple reason: she wanted to. No overthinking, no asking for anyone’s permission. No making a pro/con list like she normally would. When she saw the message, she read it twice, and then smiled. Because even though their first interaction on Cut The Camera was short, it stayed with her.
Matt had really listened to her. He didn’t interrupt, he didn’t talk over her. Not that Chris or Nick had been disrespectful, but Matt really made space for her voice.
Of course she caught the way he glanced at her sometimes, or whenever she said something gallant — not judgemental, not surprised, just… Intrigued. And his laugh? It wasn’t loud, it was real, honest.
On the other hand, Kylie’s life was loud. Cameras, opinions, clickbait.
But Matt? Matt was quiet intention.
He wasn’t asking for a post or a collab. He wasn’t looking for clout. He just wanted to see her. That was kinda rare. Plus, she’d caught herself wondering what he was like without the other two, no triplet dynamic or shared punchlines. Just Matt. So when he reached out, her answer came naturally:
“i’m down. you better like milkshakes.”
And that was it. She didn’t know what it would be, didn’t even expect anything big. She would go for a milkshake and hang out with someone she knew because of work. For her, it was about letting herself say yes without armor.
And maybe — just maybe — because she wanted to know him too.
“i can pick you up, if you want. i just thought i’d offer”.
Kylie stared at it, amused. She could easily drive. I mean, she had her car with her right there, parked outside her place. It was really no problem. But something about the offer made her pause.
It’s old school. Gentle. Hinting that he actually wants to spend time with her, not just meet up. So she typed back:
“bold of you to assume i trust anyone’s driving but my own 😎
but okay, come pick me up
let’s risk it.”

He showed up ten minutes early.
Not that he told her that, of course. He waited outside, leaning against his car trying not to look like his mind had been pacing inside the vehicle. He stared at the floor, holding back a smile because of the situation back at his parents place.
“Why does Matt look like he's walking into a GQ shoot when we’re just ordering fucking pizza?” Nick even dropped down his phone when he saw his brother. “I’m going out for a bit,” he replied, grabbing the car keys.
When Kylie walked out in a dark denim jacket, boots, and her pretty dark hair pulled into a ponytail, he goes:
"Wow, you look like you're about to kill someone," he'd meant it as a compliment.
Her response, however, was pure Kylie—quick and witty. “Really? I haven’t shot your heart just yet.”
Matt's breath hitched, just for a second. Kylie's retort, delivered with that effortless, bold grin, landed oh, so precisely. He tried to play it cool, a casual shrug, a slight tilt of his head. But inside, a small, involuntary part of him was doing a backflip.
He remembered her playing around with Nick, tossing out a pick-up line during the podcast. It had been funny then, a casual, performative flirtation. But this? This felt different. More direct. More... pointedly at him.
Matt forced a light laugh, trying to keep his composure. "Well, let's hope my heart survives this then," he quipped back, hoping his voice didn't betray the sudden flutter in his chest. He shoved his hands into his pockets, a subtle movement to ground himself. He told himself it was just Kylie being Kylie, just her natural charisma. But as she walked closer, the scent of something alluring, like vanilla, maybe something floral reaching him, he found himself thinking about that "just us" text again. And suddenly, the idea of hanging out with her felt a lot more significant than he'd anticipated.
Matt’s car pulled away from her street, the hum of the engine a low counterpoint to the quiet anticipation between them. "How was the photoshoot, by the way? I saw the behind the scenes that you posted yesterday" he asked, glancing at her. "AllSaints, right? Sounds intense."
Kylie leaned back, her hand resting on the window sill. "Yeah, it was... my kind of intense," she chuckled. "Very moody, you know? Felt less like modeling and more like acting out a vibe. The creative director was cool. We shot mostly around Beacon Hill and a few old brick alleys. Felt very 'Kylie Rose' before I even showed up." She paused, a small smile playing on her lips. "It's funny, sometimes I think I accidentally built a brand that just fits me, instead of the other way around."
Matt nodded, his eyes on the road. "I get that. Sometimes it feels like the content just... becomes who you are." He made a turn, heading towards the narrow, bustling streets of the North End. "Speaking of brands, I scouted a place. Hope it's moody enough for you."

They found a parking spot a few blocks away and walked, the afternoon air carrying the scent of Italian pastries and old brick. The café was called Thinking Cup on Hanover Street, precisely the kind of place Kylie imagined. Vintage wooden chairs and small, mismatched tables were bathed in the warm glow of Edison bulbs, while soft, jazzy lo-fi music drifted from unseen speakers. It was cozy, unpretentious, and immediately inviting.
"Perfect," Kylie murmured, taking in the vibe.
They approached the counter, the menu board looming above them. Kylie scanned it, a mischievous glint in her eye. "Milkshake, please," she said, her voice clear. "Strawberry."
Matt blinked. He'd half-expected her to go for something complex and dark, like a double chocolate mocha or a salted caramel concoction – something that matched the depth of her online persona. But strawberry milkshake? It was simple, sweet, almost... innocent. He found himself smiling.
"You know," she commented, turning to him after placing her order, "Do people even drink coffee anymore?"
"Only people trying to prove something," Matt deadpanned, and they both laughed, the sound easy and genuine in the low hum of the café. "I'll take a vanilla milkshake, please," he told the barista, leaning in slightly. "I don’t drink coffee.”
“You kidding,” she turns, her ponytail spinning around in a dramatic way. “I hate coffee.”
They grabbed their frosty glasses, condensation already beading on the sides, and found a small table by the window. The clinking of ceramic mugs and hushed conversations formed a comfortable backdrop. Kylie took a long sip of her vibrant pink drink, a satisfied sigh escaping her lips. "This is exactly what I needed."
Matt watched her, the simple pleasure on her face a stark contrast to the complexities he often perceived in her videos. They sat in a comfortable silence for a moment, letting the warmth of the café and the soft hum of conversation wrap around them like a blanket. Kylie leaned back in her chair, eyes scanning the view outside the window—graffiti-tagged walls, narrow alleyways, and weathered brick buildings soaked in late afternoon light while he asked her about how it was moving to Boston, her favorite places and all that jazz.
...grit,” she finished, swirling her straw lazily in her milkshake. “Like, it’s rough around the edges, but in a way that feels earned. Like a city with good stories.”
Matt nodded slowly, elbow resting on the table as he watched her. “That’s how you describe cities?” he asked, amused. “With character assessments?”
Kylie raised an eyebrow and leaned in slightly. “Would you rather I described it by square mileage and architectural stats?”
“No, I like your version better,” he admitted, chuckling. “Makes me wonder what you’d say about people.”
She paused, that familiar glint sparking behind her eyes again. “Well, you, for example,” she began, tracing a finger along the rim of her glass. “I think you’re like one of those old radios, you know? Quiet until someone tunes in just right. And when they do… there’s music. Unexpected, layered, kind of addictive. But not everyone takes the time to listen properly.”
Matt blinked, a little thrown off. “That’s… oddly poetic.”
“Poetic is my second language,” Kylie quipped with a small shrug, though there was something soft behind her tone, like she wasn’t just joking. She tilted her head. “What about me?”
He glanced down at his drink, swirling the melted rim with his straw as he considered. Then: “You’re like a fire alarm with lipstick on.”
Kylie snorted. “Wow.”
“Wait, hear me out,” he said, laughing along with her. “You’re bold. Sharp. You say what people don’t want to hear, even if it makes them flinch. But you’re also… deliberate. You know how you affect a room, and you don’t waste that.”
She looked at him for a moment longer than necessary. Not with amusement, but with intrigue. Maybe even appreciation. “Okay, that was good. I’ll allow it.”
They sat in a silence that wasn’t awkward, just full —the kind that held weight because both were thinking the same thing but neither wanted to break it too fast. Outside, people passed by the window, some rushing, some strolling. The city moved on without them, but neither of them seemed in any hurry to rejoin it.
“Hey,” Matt said suddenly, “can I ask something kinda random?”
“Always,” Kylie replied, sipping again.
“Do you ever just… wish you could shut it all off? Like, all of it. The comments, the posts, the numbers. Just go somewhere where no one knows your name?”
She leaned back, milkshake halfway to her lips. Her expression shifted. Not darker, but more grounded. Real.
“All the time,” she said quietly. “But then I remember... if no one knows my name, maybe I forget it too.”
Matt’s gaze didn’t leave her. “So what do you do instead?”
She gave a small, lopsided smile. “I try to find people who don’t care about the numbers. Who see me anyway. But try is exaggerating a bit. I don’t really chase people.”
Matt’s chest tightened just slightly. “I think that’s a pretty fair plan.”
Kylie looked down at her almost-empty glass and then back at him. “Good. ’Cause I think I just found one.”
Neither said anything after that. They didn’t have to. The milkshakes were almost gone. But the silence between them? Still sweet. Matt was the one who interrupted that break.
"So, what's next on the Boston agenda for you? Any more shoots, or are you free for a bit?" Matt asked, trying to sound casual, but hoping she was free.
Kylie smirked. "Nope, all done. Just chilling until tomorrow. Then I gotta start thinking about work again. Why, you got something in mind?"
Matt's smile widened. "Maybe. How about we just... drive?”
Kylie's eyes lit up. "Deal. But I'm DJ."

Minutes later, they were back in Matt's car, the windows cracked just enough to let the cool evening air flow in.
Matt, a creature of habit when it came to his music, found himself surprised to hand over the aux cord without a second thought. Kylie, seizing the moment, queued up a mix that perfectly encapsulated her own eclectic taste: the raw energy of Arctic Monkeys flowed into the dreamy, lo-fi vibes of Hotel Ugly, before abruptly shifting to that one Doja Cat remix she remembered and swore "goes stupid in the car”.
He stole a few looks at her as she sang along, completely unfiltered. Her voice was pretty and free. She wasn't trying to impress him; she was just being. He liked that. More than liked it, he felt a pull towards that unapologetic authenticity.
The city lights eventually thinned, giving way to quieter, tree-lined streets. Matt navigated instinctively, pulling into what looked like a hidden entrance to a local park, like the kind only residents knew about, almost empty at this hour. The dusk was deepening into twilight, casting long, soft shadows across the open spaces. She read “Danehy Park”.
Kylie hopped out first, her boots hitting the gravel with a soft crunch.
"We're walking?" he asked, a hint of playful disbelief in his voice. He didn’t think she would like nature.
"We're existing," she corrected, already moving towards a path that wound into the trees. "Just come on."
They walked, not rushing, just letting the conversation flow. The topics drifted far beyond the usual first-date pleasantries. They talked about childhood memories, the raw, unedited moments that shaped them. They spoke about what truly scared them, the anxieties and quiet fears that YouTube rarely saw. They even touched on who they were before the cameras, before the subscriber counts and the public gaze.
Matt found himself telling her about his favorite place to think, where the world felt vast and his problems small. Kylie, in turn, shared a more tender, poignant memory: the exact day she realized her childhood ended too early, a quiet admission that hung in the air, heavy with unspoken understanding. Matt didn't pry; he just listened, truly listened, the same way he did on the podcast.
Then, tucked away amidst some older trees, they stumbled upon it: a small, forgotten playground. Swings hung still, slides gleamed faintly in the dim light, and a merry-go-round sat patiently.
Kylie's eyes lit up, a spark of childlike mischief igniting within her. "Race you to the swings?" she challenged, already taking a step back, ready to sprint.
Matt laughed, a genuine, unrestrained sound. "That's not fair. You're in boots!"
"Exactly," she shot back, already halfway to a running start. "I'll still win."
And she did.
While he pushed himself on the swing, Kylie sat sideways so that she could see him.
“Come on, Matt! You can do better than that, go higher!”
Matt laughed, a genuine, unburdened sound. She went behind him to give him a push and then stood in front of him from a safe distance. Looking at her, a profound sense of ease settled in. "You're something, you know that?" he said, the words coming out unbidden.
Kylie's smile softened, turning reflective. "Only when I let myself be," she replied, her gaze meeting him across the now small distance between his swing and her. "It's… quieter here. With you."
"Yeah," Matt agreed, the word barely a whisper. "It is." He felt it too. A rare peace, a sense of belonging that was both unexpected and deeply comforting. It wasn't about the cameras. In the quiet of the park, under the fading light, it was just them. The air between them hummed with an unspoken understanding, a gentle current of connection.

Eventually, Kylie’s laughter died down, replaced by a soft sigh. "Okay, Cinderella, playtime's over," she said, her voice tinged with a familiar, reluctant resignation. "I really should head back home."
Matt's heart sank a little at the mention of her leaving, but he nodded. "Right, reality calls."
They walked towards the edge of the playground, the silence comfortable between them. Just as they were about to leave, Kylie spotted the slide. With a sudden burst of energy, she climbed the short steps. "Wait, one more for the road," she announced, and instead of sliding down forward, she sat, faced the sky, and pushed off to slide backwards.
"Kylie, don't—" Matt started, but it was too late. Her boots caught on the edge, and she wobbled precariously as she reached the bottom. With a small yelp, she almost toppled over. In an instant, Matt was there. His hand shot out, catching her arm just as she lost her balance at the end of the freaking slide.
“Are you good?” he asked, kinda preoccupied, but she was too busy laughing her ass off to answer the question. Her head was thrown back, a bright, uninhibited sound bubbling out of her that echoed through the quiet park. He couldn't help but crack a smile, then a full-blown laugh himself, caught by the sheer absurdity and her contagious joy.
"I'm okay, it’s okay!" she finally gasped between giggles, pushing herself upright with his help. Her cheeks were flushed, and her eyes, sparkling with mirth, met his. She straightened her denim jacket, adjusting her hair.
“Really? I just had to save you from yourself,” Matt retorted, a playful smirk tugging at his lips as he released her arm.
Kylie rolled her eyes good-naturedly. “Thanks, hero. My pride is slightly bruised.”
They ambled back to his car, the previous comfortable silence now replaced by a lighter, more animated hum. The near-tumble on the slide, instead of being an awkward moment, had simply become another shared laugh, solidifying the easy camaraderie that had blossomed between them.
Once they were settled back in the car, the engine a soft purr, Matt took control of the music. "Alright, since you nearly broke your neck on my watch, I'm taking back DJ duties for moral support," he announced, scrolling through his phone.
Kylie scoffed playfully. "Fine, but if it's country, I'm calling an Uber."
He grinned, selecting a Mac Miller track, its “chill but cool” beats filling the space. "Relax, I know your vibe. We're going with something that screams 'I just narrowly avoided a playground injury, but I'm still cool enough.'"
The drive back to her apartment was easy. The earlier, deeper discussions about fears and childhoods had laid a powerful foundation, but now, it was simply the joy of sharing a quiet moment, of existing together without pressure. The city lights began to brighten again as they approached her neighborhood, and the unspoken realization that their time together was nearing its end hung gently in the air.
The mellow notes faded as Matt pulled up to the curb outside Kylie’s place. The city, though still awake, felt hushed, as if in deference to the quiet understanding that had grown between them. He cut the engine, and the sudden silence in the car felt both profound and entirely comfortable.
Neither of them made an immediate move to get out. The vibe between them was thick with a new, unspoken awareness, a delicate tension that was both exhilarating and just a little bit daunting. It wasn't the kind of tension that needed breaking, but one that promised something more.
Finally, Kylie unbuckled her seatbelt. "Well, this was... not what I expected," she said, a small smile playing on her lips as she turned to face him. "But in the best way." She paused, her gaze steady. "It was actually really nice to see you without your brothers, I wasn't expecting that."
Matt's smile softened, a genuine warmth spreading across his face. "Good unexpected, I hope?"
"The best kind," she confirmed, her eyes twinkling. She opened the car door, but didn't immediately step out. Instead, she paused, a genuine softness in her expression. "Thanks for not being weird," she offered, the words sincere.
Matt chuckled, a warm sound in the cool night. "Thanks for not being… Hollywood," he replied, a playful jab at the work community they were used to.
They shared a smile, a silent acknowledgment of the authenticity they'd found in each other, away from the glare of cameras and expectations. It was a shared secret, a small victory in a world that often felt performative.
"Next time," Matt said, his voice a low rumble, the words holding a weight that transcended a casual suggestion. "You're picking me up. I see your car."
Kylie's smile widened into a full grin, a flash of her inherent confidence returning. "Bet," she nodded, her eyes bright with a challenge he was more than willing to accept. "But I’m still picking the music."
He didn’t mind one bit.

tagging: @sturns-mermaid @a103-chris-mm @zenithsturniolo @cayleeuhithinknott
#matt sturniolo#matthew sturniolo#matthew bernard sturniolo#matt stuniolo fanfic#nick sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#chris sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#sturniolo triplets#the sturniolo triplets#the sturniolo fandom#sturniolo fanfic#matt sturniolo au#matt sturniolo x oc
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Any Interest in Beta Reading The Water Dog?
(Just the first 100 pages, approx 30k words)
I'm mostly wondering if there's any interest in reading and giving me initial opinions/criticisms/notes/reactions, so that when I re-draft I have a stronger idea of what a reader is seeing in the work.
Here's the basic plot overview:
A letter arrives from a woman Sybil doesn't know, asking her to travel to an island she's never heard of, to care for a grandfather she's never met. But there is something about Calda, that lost little island, that calls to Sybil, sinks its claws in and won't let go. What begins as an unwanted obligation transforms into a supernatural mystery with a dangerous secret at its heart, and a monstrous romance that has no intention of letting Sybil leave alive.
This story is set in 1930, and is predominantly horror-romance (although we haven't really gotten far into the romance by the first 100 pages, sowwy) so expect some tension and disturbing imagery. There is one chapter with specific trigger warnings related to allusions sexual trauma.
This is a novel so it has a different structure to my serialised fiction on here, which is more episodic and insularly focused on the romantic elements.
If you're interested in giving it a read and offering feedback, please DM me @literalnobody!
Or you can email me at boinsnoween@gmail(dot)com ^_^
#the water dog#idk if this is a story anyone will be interested in#its VERY structurally different to my other stories so we'll see
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☆ Modern AU stardust gang ☆
#im thinking about making this a print 🫠#the test print looked really good but idk if anyone would be interested#i also have a Joseph but ill post it separate#im also working on the duwang gang and im kinda obsessed with oku and the back story i came up for him#these are my little guys and i love them 😭#jjba#jojos bizarre adventure#jojo no kimyou na bouken#stardust crusaders#jotaro#jotaro kujo#kakyoin#noriaki kakyoin#jotakak#noritaro#polnareff#jean pierre polnareff#avdol#mohammed avdol#avpol#vacas jjba uni au#artists on tumblr#adri blabs#my art#jjba part 3
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detransition is something that should Absolutely be talked about but the idea of going into this tag terrifies me beyond belief
#ramble#things they'll never tell you about detransition:#it is Not always by choice!! a lot of the time it's for financial/social reasons#and a lot of detransitioners go on to retransition#technically i'm a detransitioner BECAUSE of terf/transmed bullshit and i'll tell the story if anyone is interested#and like. the people in the news aren't the average detransitioner#they're saying 'it wasn't right for me so therefore nobody should have it'#also trans people and detransitioners are not enemies. we don't hate eachother#idk i have a lot of thoughts and i can't articulate them but i know what i want to say
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some stories are written precisely to elicit strong emotions from the reader INCLUDING negative ones. some stories and characters are meant to be upsetting, they are meant to challenge you and make you uncomfortable!! when a story makes you feel Big Feelings sometimes you are meant to sit in those feelings and ask yourself why! fiction is a great space to explore these emotions in a safe environment. you, as the reader, are meant to think critically about the art you are enjoying and that includes asking yourself questions like why has the author presented their art in this way and what are they trying to tell me. and then you get to have fun picking it apart and figuring it out and deciding what, exactly, the art means to you.
#this post has been in my drafts since SEPTEMBER and it just gets more and more relevant lately#and sure sometimes we decide in the end that the art is bad and that we don't like it. that's fine. i'm not arguing anyone's right#to dislike certain things. it's fine!!! but why are you acting like it's a personal offense??? what's going on??#like idk what is in the water these days that people have become so averse to Storytelling#the whole POINT is to make you FEEL SOMETHING!!!#why are you getting mad at artists for making you feel something!!!!#between some of the asks i and other authors get to the recent stuff with mouthwashing and epic saga and fucking nosferatu#NOSFERATU. IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SCARY???#i really feel like i am losing my mind. i keep thinking of that 'disco elysium but its a little girl looking for her lost cat in the alps'#tweet. like this is really where we're at. people would rather feel Nothing. no one wants to be challenged#no one wants to explore Themes or read social commentary anymore it's so dire#let's all just go read our bland cozy fantasy story with found family and No conflict & nothing interesting to say at all#i'm sure we'll all be safe there#fuck!!!#also this isnt aimed at that anon i got a few days ago this is just like. a general trend i have noticed that is happening Everywhere rn
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autistic people when there's collectable things with tv shows with multiple generations of them:

#my litte pony friendship is magic#mlp#teenage mutant ninja turtles#littlest pet shop#lps#collectibles#toys#mainly talking about those things but if anyone wants to add other things please do!!#autism#self diagnosis#pls dont take this as generalizing I just really love collecting stuff based on my personal special interests but people who dont#are still autistic regardless also splatoon fixation has returned because of side order but still haven't played it bc I need to finish#the main story mode also got a tiny metal locker bc of splatoon from kmart for 9 dollars and its pink and cute also said kmart bc it still#exists in australia lmao idk about other countries but maybe also nz but not sure!!#edit: i have played some of side order!! its so funnnn
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Jaiden: Cucurucho, you have a lot of power, right?
Cucurucho: ...I don't know. Maybe.
Roier: Ah... Yes, you know, don't act like a dumbass, you have it. You have it, man. Eh?
Jaiden: Is there a way for us to protect all the Eggs? Do you know? I don't want anything to happen to the Eggs that happened to Bobby.
Cucurucho: Ha ha ha
Roier: WHAT? [Smacks Cucurucho]
Jaiden: [Bops him] Headpats.
Cucurucho: Maybe.
Jaiden: [Continues to bop him] Headpats. C'mon, I can get it out of you! Headpats! Chin scratches! Belly rubs!
Roier: [Joins Jaiden in bopping Cucurucho, chuckling and laughs]
Jaiden: Yeah? He's comin' around!
[Jaiden and Roier both laugh]
#Jaiden Animations#Roier#Cucurucho#QSMP#Jaiden#Animations Family#There is. So much I could say about these three#and so much I could say about their relationship / interactions with Cucurucho and Osito Bimbo#Cards on the table... I really would have loved it if Cucurucho / Osito genuinely cared about Jaiden#I mean I know they DID care about her to some extent that much is clear#But they / the Federation were also ABSOLUTELY using her. I'm not arguing that they weren't#But how could anyone not be charmed by Jaiden? The boba the tea parties the head pats–#The empathy and kindness and everything that made q!Jaiden who she was–#Cucurucho and Osito were tools of the Federation but I do want to believe they cared about Jaiden. Albeit in their own fricked up way#I dunno. I know this sounds like massive copium probably but I watched all of her and Roier's streams interacting with them#and I personally think that conflict and duality makes for a more interesting story#But that's just me and my own personal biases. I dunno how to properly put it into words but I am cradling them all close to my heart#I loved Cucurucho / Osito and I thought they were interesting and I'm SO SAD we'll never know what Jaiden did for them in the past#Anyways. For anyone who's read this far into my rant– you know how Cucurucho saved the Eggs and Jaiden said she died in Purgatory?#I like imagining that she survived the bomb and wound up finding the Eggs in the aftermath#and she helped them survive until Cucurucho found them#I imagine that Jaiden was the reason they were able to escape from the Island / The Watcher / ElQuackity#She stayed behind to slow down their pursuers. And Cucurucho rescuing all the Eggs fulfilled his agreement with Jaiden—#A promise to protect the Eggs#Like I said a lot of this is copium but that's what I like imagining#TLDR: Cucurucho / Osito did care about her in a weird way but that doesn't mean they weren't manipulating her#May 31 2023#Idk man I got a lot of emotions about q!Jaiden#Roier too but I feel like I've done way more analysis posts about him and Cucurucho. Jaiden needs time in the spotlight#Anyways there's my monthly tag rant
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caught up with drdt. everyone in this class is trained in the art of escalating minor arguments to life changing violence. not a single normal person in this group. it's awesome never change drdt cast.
#i've been meaning to get into it for months#its good! i like it!#excited for the new episode#the idea of a dr webseries (or really just anything telling a dr story in a format that isn't a game)#is super interesting to me! i can't wait to see where it goes!#a very casual fan saying this by the way. idk what anyone is talking about i feel so lost#I <3 NOT KNOWING!!!#drdt
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I've come to realize that there's only a certain amount of dumbassery I can take from people in romantic relationships, both in media and IRL before I start getting annoyed. You have a non-abusive partner that generally just doesn't do shit to put effort into the relationship and you've communicated your needs 50,000 fucking times and you're still with them even after they showed you they don't care to change? The mf cheated on you 5 times and you're still going back? They're still obsessed with their ex? (Lesbians I'm looking at you, unfortunately).
And in media oh my god, it'll be two 30+-year-old adult people with zero common sense or self-preservation skills - please don't pmo. I saw a kinda in-depth review of Babygirl and aside from it being a movie about straight sex, I know I'd never be able to watch it simply because bitch what do you mean you have a loving, empathetic partner that is literally Antonio Banderas and instead of communicating to him that you want him to pat you on the ass a little in bed so you can get off, you go cheat on him with your employee???? With your employee??? Yes, I know, if people weren't dumb in movies the stories wouldn't be as interesting, but that doesn't mean it isn't going to irritate the fuck out of me to watch grown people act stupid.
#“it makes the story interesting” yes I know but it pisses ME off. Personally.#as an avoidant trust me ik communication is hard but how is anyone supposed to get anything done without knowing there's an issue#lesbian#☆kennie's rambles#wlw#idk what triggered this lol but yeah#'but I love them' but do they even *like* you is the real question because no one that loves you would do that!#it just gets to a point ...
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Still fascinated by how much hate Mitsi gets for the whole "dead fem-coded loved one backstory" thing and all the hangups surrounding that when Purple's mom is arguably a much more egregious instance of the thing everyone is upset about Mitsi for but she ultimately got a pass because...idk, she was The First?
#animator vs animation#animation vs minecraft#avm shorts#avm#ava 11#ava11#this is me analyzing the fandom as much as it's me analyzing the actual series#idk maybe I'm missing something but I just#find it interesting that Mitsi gets all the vitriol seemingly just because she's the newest example#because when you look she's not the worst example at all#and part of me thinks that there's some underlying misunderstanding here#like. I get that everyone's mad she got fridged.#but the way some folks talk it's like they think her dying was her only contribution to the story#and that's not the case at all#she has so much more going on than Purple's mom did#she's a narrative foil and a character foil. she serves a thematic purpose as well as a plot one.#it's because of her that Victim was able to connect with anyone else. he loses touch with their community once she's gone.#Rocket was her idea! it exists because she wanted it to!#and now when we look back at the last two episodes we can see her haunting the narrative#we only learn enough about Gold and about Purple's Mom to make us sad for King and for Purple when they die#but we don't really miss them ourselves#because they don't really exist outside of King's and Purple's pasts#Mitsi feels so much better integrated because she exists in the story as more than just part of Victim's story#and her influence on the story doesn't end with her death#but it feels like people believe that her dying for Victim's backstory negates everything else she does for the story#and that's the only thing they see#but I'm wondering if she's the target of everyone's upset not just because she's the third backstory-death#and not just because she's only the second overtly fem-coded character and both died in their introductory episodes#but because there WAS more to her...so people are upset that she STILL died for someone else's story?#maybe
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Would anyone be interested in a Danny Phantom Planned!AU (Drs Fenton intentionally caused the “accident” to give Danny his powers) told from the perspective of one of his clones?
#danny phantom#fanfic idea#kinda fucked up the half story I have imagined#Idk how it’s gonna end until I start writing it#Maddie Fenton is pretty fucked up in this tho#Jack too just not as bad#Vlad is somewhere in the middle in a different way#no good adults#I think Danny is actually smart just only in what he cares about and in the show he doesn’t get that chance#because the requirements for being an astronaut#you don’t just get that if you don’t know what you’re doing#anyways Danny’s clone is given the chance to be smart#and then makes it everyone’s (Maddie and vlad’s) problem#I also desperately want to write completely codependent relationships#But like#one sided#I need to write about a kid who would burn the world to save his brother who doesn’t even see him#Who doesn’t even know he’s fighting for him tooth and nail#To make sure Danny isn’t the one on the operating table next time#Idk would anyone be interested?
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shipping discourse is so funny to me because ill see people flip over their otps and notps and im over here going "haha stendy. woohoo stanchole. oho stolkien. yayy twenny. ohh bunny. wohohh creek. ooo cryle" etc. etc.
#the woes of the multishipper#or ig... casual shipper?#i just dont care that deeply enough about ships#esp when it comes to south park?? idk theyre so silly that it feels a little silly getting so worked up over it#NOT TO SAY ANYONE WHO IS PASSIONATE ABOUT SHIPPING IS SILLY!! i have my own hyperfixations as well and everyone is valid in theirs#just for me its not that deep#i think more than anything i value an interesting dynamic and a strong story#i like seeing people be passionate for their ships too their enthusiasm for it is infectious to me#i dooo love canon ships though like marin and gojo from my dress up darling#and okarun and momo from dandadan#but also i love seeing peoples interpretations of rarepairs or non-canon ships and seeing people explore those dynamics#both platonic and romantic but i esp like it when people explore platonic dynamics#idk just something thats been on my mind#when it comes to my oc x canon ships though... different ballpark altogether i am so feral for those#ramblings of a silly mushroom...#south park#shroomer talks !
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If you've never watched a BobbyBroccoli Video please do yourself a favour and check him out - his videos are fascinating, well-told and look amazing
(I genuinely have a bit of an art crush on him because his stuff is so good 🙈)
Here's one of his videos about something happening in science (you don't need to know anything about physics, he explains things very well)
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He's one of those youtubers i often forget are an absolute favourite of mine until he releases another video and i remember 'oh right him! i love his stuff!!!'
#mine#bobbybroccoli#bobby broccoli#youtube#video essay#victor ninov#ive never seen anyone talk about him anywhere so i thought id recommend him maybe some of my mutuals would enjoy his stuff#idk man every time i watch a video of his i go !!!!!#i have no clue about physics and generally dont find it interesting but he does a great job explaining whats going on and why it is importa#and a lot of his videos are about people making big world-changing mistakes and its very fascinating to watch him tell the story#because he is really good at telling the story to build up the tension and stuff i think#anyway if u like long video essays with a calm but nice sounding narrator please check him out#(fun fact i named my fave oc (nikolaj ninov) after the guy this video is about (because of this video) lol)#also i feel very strongly about my favourite youtubers and if anyone needs recommendations feel free to hmu i love to talk about it
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every time I hear someone say "oh you have to listen to Dear Evan Hansen it has such good mental health representation" I cry in Next to Normal
#next to normal#and yes this is based on a true story#generally I dont try to juck anyones jum so I of course didn't tell that person what I was thinking at that moment#and if someone found Dear Evan Hansen a useful text in terms of their own mental health journey who am I to discredit that#but this is the internet and I am back on the ntn train#in a way it is my saf autumn musical#and yes I am a survior of the 2017 Tony Awards why were you asking?#no but seriously#it is so interesting how many narrative devices Dear Evan Hansen took from Next to Normal#but turned them into a less complete piece#like Gabe in ntn is a representation of unadressed grief and trauma and the family has to accept that he will never be really gone#and connor is just...idk not fully thought out?#idk I'm rambling#but also#how the love story between Henry and Natalie means something#Natalie sees her parent's relationship and desperately doesn't want that for herself and Henry at the same time also stand for#a piece of normalcy that seems attainable#you don't sit there and think hu why is there this completely separate love story thrown in there?#it mirrors the problems#and dear evan hansen#do I even have to say it#I thnk the thing I resent it most for is that it has a love story#naja#I'm of listening to net to normal some more#sorry I someone who really likes deh stumbles accross this#I feel like espechially musicals can be something that can be so personal#and I don't actually want to contribute to more stuff like#ew why do you like this when theres xyz that is so much better or morally purer or whatever#I guess what I do want to say is: if I had a nickle for everytime they made a musical about mental health where theres a ghost on stage and#the sister of the dead kid falls in love with a funny guy while her family is falling apart
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I think people should stop making mafuyu vs tsukasa comparisons about them both hiding themselves on purpose/on instinct and start making comparisons about how they act as their expectations and how they contrast each other's character arcs- which are either focused on escaping the expectations versus enveloping yourself in them
#also how mafuyus expectations are set by others vs how tsukasas are set by himself#how mafuyus acting was something she lived with and couldnt even imagine living without#which shes starting to drop as part of her character development#compared to tsukasa who's acting is something hes completely fixated on making better#by acting i mean obviously the roles he does on stage and not himself. mostly. but i think its still interesting#their character arcs are reversed#i just think theyre a little cool guys#guys can anyone hear me#also the fact they both meet them for the most part. im not saying that theyre tragic because they cant meet them no matter what they do#its just that the bar keeps getting raised#idk. this might be stupid and i might be making a egregious oversight. but like. yea :) im excited to read tsukasa5#in the meantime ill have to reread all the n25 event stories#mafukasa#yeah sure ill drop this in the shark-post cancelled. my phone almost autocorrected that to sharkophagus
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